ok this is life for me and where i came about lol...try to understand that this happened a while ago..

Allright lets start from the beginning... My full name is Jarrid Fernandez... I was born and raised in Woonsocket R.I. and I have been through the toughest times throughout my life. To the point were I didn't want to live anymore... My life was rough when I was little. I grew up around drugs,guns,gangs,fig hts,murders,near death experience and suicide attemps...I was probably 9 years old and i was living on a street called east school street. I was living with my mom and her boyfriend... My moms ex boyfriend used to torture me when I was little... He used to beat me and my mom up...Then he just got up and walked out on us... good grief. lol... but yeah. i was watching tv one day and i heard yelling in my hallway. i walked out into the hallway and in that second I just say a knife go right into my mother's friends stomach...then she just hit the floor. the man that stabbed her ran out the door and was never seen again.... i was nine so I was curious... I tried to help her up and she wouldn't allow me to pick her up...I pulled my hands from behind her and my hands were covered in blood... I started to cry...so many years have passed after that...she is still alive god bless her...moving on in life... i was about 12 years old and I was living in a new house.... I was getting a bath and I was splashing water like always..then someone came in and grabbed me and shoved me under the water and just held me there...I didn't even bother to struggle because the force was to strong for me... I just let myself die slowly...then all of a sudden I was released...That was one near death experience I had... moving on...I was about 14 and I was in a new house because both my old houses burned down..I was in my stepfathers room playing a game with him...He got pissed at me for no reason and grabbed me by the throat...I clenched my fist really tight because I had no chance against him... he is much bigger than me and he is a power lifter... I started to feel myself get lighter and lighter... I then blacked out and started my way torwards white lights...I didn't know what I was seeing.. Was it heaven or was it hell.. humm.. heck if I know.. but moving on.. My mother came in and got him off of me... it took me a short while to come back in place... when I was fully awakend and rejuvinated I said "if he doesn't move out im going to kill myself.."... then the suicide came in... tried to hang myself,cut my throat and tried to overdose...I didn't exceed in any of them... I was stopped in each attempt..My life was horrible... I was in a predicement were I didn't really care about living anymore... but u know what...Why do that when I got to be the person I wanted to be... look at all of my achievments..I starred in Jesus Christ Superstar, I am about to graduate, and am a singer, promoter of a band and I think that is the most important thing and that is life... So don't let ur dreams go down the drain like mine did...My dreams went down hill but I still came on top.. If anyof that story went all the way... You wouldn't even be reading this.. Thank you very much... That Took alot of heart for me to tell this but u know what... I am glad...Leading example for alot of people out there. Don't waste life.. live it to the fullest. Many thanks to all of my friends on myspace and all of the visitors that see this page... I love u all..
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Here is my aim name so we can keep in touch: TheDoorOfLight
Here is my MSN name so we can keep in touch: JarridFernandez@hotm ail.com
Here is my YIM name so we can keep in touch: JarridFernandez@yaho o.com
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